Forgive or Forget

They tell me to Forgive and Forget

How can I forgive 

When the pain still exists

How can I forget 

when thoughts keep running threw my head

I shouldn't have seen what I saw 

But I did 

I heard the  cries the pain the screams they echo threw my head

I saw my mom lay there on the floor almost dead

But on Sundays the  priest asked me to forgive my dad 

I asked the priest how can I he left

How can I love A father that has forsaken me ? 

My childhood was ripped right from under me 

Cuz every night my mom got beat 

I had to hear my mom say come rescue me 

People knew me by the girl that does not have a father 

But I said a least I still have a mother 

I was her hero her guardian angel

I would protect her at night from any kind of danger 

Forgiveness to me was a myth 

Because if my father loved us he would have never done what he did 

My past weighs heavy on my heart 

But there will be a day when I will have to forgive but I will never forget.